Balanced Meditation

I've felt a need to meditate recently.  Not meditation as most people would think of it--chants, burning incense, the lotus position, and a deep-seated belief that the Force flows through all things.  When I say meditation, I mean quiet time where I think about what matters and I try to center myself.  The phrase "center myself" probably isn't very clear to you, but I'm not sure how to explain it.  I just know when something is unbalanced in my mind and I need to fix it.  But it's not easy for me to meditate because I usually like to be outdoors and moving when I meditate.  I come from mountainous, heavily forested country.  I used to grab my headphones, crank up the volume, throw on my shoes, and go climb a mountain.  That's meditation.  I once said that I think best in the shower.  Something about the water: movement, steam, miniscule and multiple rapid hits to the head...  But I also think really well when I meditate.  From time to time, I still grab my headphones and go around Holmes.  It's not mountains and forest, but it's the closest I'll find within a short distance.

Lately, I've felt unbalanced.  It's largely due, I suspect, to the fact that I have no regular routine right now.  In other words, I've got no job and I'm going a little nuts.  I've been meaning to go for a walk for a couple of days now but I never did.  But sometimes God decides to pick up the slack where we've left off.  I got in my car today to drive to my lunch appointment.  As usual, I started the car and turned on the radio.  The regular channels were playing junk so I turned to K-LOV.  "My Own Little World" by Matthew West was playing.  If you haven't heard it, look it up.  Good song.  The song lasted until I parked.  Coincidence?  I think not.  I don't believe in coincidence anymore.  At a time when I needed it, God sent me a message.  A reminder that "my own little world is not about me".

I still need to meditate sometime.  Life looks a little better, though.  Little less gray.  I don't need to worry about the future so much.  Someone already has it arranged.